Don't want to ride dru or Xavier. Dru because there's no point anymore. It used to be ride to get better, for the next show, or to learn something new. Now there's nothing else. It's done. And Xavier isn't the horse I'm familiar with, the horse I love. I don't really think I'll ever have with xav what I have with dru, because I've never had anything close to what dru and I have. It stinks because loosing dru has put me in such a bad mood. Thinking about stopping riding for a month.